Just Do It... Easier Said Than Done...

I just want to cry. I can't because it isn't time and my moral being won't let me. I try to ask myself why I want to cry right now and I feel so stupid for the answers I come up with. I know everything I want to say to him, but I can't seem to bring myself to say them. I have the argument over and over in my head. I know I'd win, not that I want it to be a fight. I want it to be a civil discussion, but even in my head it ends up escalating because I know he will see it as an attack on him and fight to defend himself, leading me to fight to prove my point. Either that or he will submit way too easily and I will be critical as to whethof nor not he actually heard me and will listen. In the past it was a combination of both and ended with a repeat a few weeks later, hence my feelings tonight. Maybe we just need to have a falling out to get everything out there and then see how things go from there. I think that between the two of us, a "falling out" wouldn't end badly. We've had too many of those to let them actually end the way "falling out" is meant to be defined as. We'll see. The more frustrated I get, the more confidence I build to just do it.