Worries: Scare or "Other"?

So here we are again. In a scare.

This time it is much more intense than the first time. This time I told him about it. This time I am much more upset.

Why?

I realized at the end of our conversation that the entire time, I was concerned about him. I felt bad because he didn't feel good with exam this morning. I felt bad telling him the bad news right after. I felt bad that he didn't get his internship. I felt bad that his ex-girlfriend texted him. I felt bad.... but why?

I asked if he was okay with everything multiple times. I asked how he was and how he was doing. I inquired about his recent happenings. Not once did he ask how I was. How I was handling it. How I would be considering the options. When I realized that, I broke down. It was too much.

Why was it too much?

Ashley is coming down to visit again. Because apparently four more days until summer was too long to wait to hang out. All he ever does when she comes down is throw her a party, yet on my own birthday he guilts me out of drinking because he doesn't feel like it.

The other problem I have with them partying is that he feels like drinking will fix everything. If he is stressed, he will drink. Why?? I can guarantee you your problems will still be there in the morning. Maybe it bothers me because it is a sign of alcoholism, small as the sign may be.  I have had problems with alcoholism in my family so it gets to be a tender topic. He is only 20. How bad will this problem get when he can legally drink? God knows what will happen, and it scares me to think about.

Does it bother me that even though I have all my own stuff going on to worry about, all I can think about is him? Yes. It really does. But I can't help it.