Super Secret Blog: a place for me to "super secretly" vent to the world about my life, education, men, etc., all while not revealing my true identity. The internet is a good place to get some feedback and/or support. Seems like a good idea right? We'll see...

Friday, April 1, 2011

Time Will Tell

This should be a quick blog post. I am at my boyfriend's house with him and two of his friends. I like hanging out with them, but sometimes I wonder if they realize what I am doing. I find that everytime I'm here I just do chores, like clean up after them and cook for them and do laundry. The thing is, I almost enjoy it. I feel like that makes me some kind of a domestic housewife-type person and that is the person I always wanted to avoid being. Is being here helping me to figure out who I am? And is who I actually am who I want to be? I think a part of me knows that I could be happy living a similar life to my own mothers, but another part knows that my dream is something real too. I want to be remembered for something important, and right now, being a stay-at-home mom and housewife is not something worth being remembered for. I'm sure it will change when I'm married with kids but for the time-being, it's not what I want. I don't want fame and fortune (although it'd be nice; let's face it, who doesn't want that?). I just want to do something important. I guess only time will tell.

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