"I must learn to love the fool in me the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries."
Except for the "feels too much" part, this quote is a pretty good summation of who I am. I find that I am learning more about myself every day more than I am learning in school. I change in ways that don't change who I am so much as the realization and reactions to who I've always been. In learning about those things, I learn to love myself. I don't want to do so in the cocky "I love myself! I'm awesome! Everyone should love me!" kinda of way. I need to learn to love myself in an "I appreciate myself, who I am, and what I represent" kind of way.
What I find that I am growing more sick and tired of is the fact that people keep questioning my choices. I made the decisions I made for a reason; whether I complain about the outcome or not, it was my choice. I believe that everything happens for a reason, so if I chose something that makes me unhappy at times, there has got to be a reason. If not a reason, then a lesson. But if it were going to be a lesson, the saying would be "everything happens for a lesson" and as it so happens, it's not.
It might jsut be something I have to get used to. But then again I've been saying that a lot too: "Maybe I just need to get used to it." Maybe it's time for other people to change and clean up their acts instead. But who am I to say that? It's not my place. Someday things will work out. After all, everything happens for a reason.
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