Future Thoughts

I've started thinking about my future. What do I want? I have two different plans for myself and I don't know what to choose. Luckily I don't have to yet, but it's something I will have to choose later on. I have my selfish plan, the plan that will lead me to everything I ultimately want. The other plan is with someone, making a family in the perfect little family world. Is there a way to have both and still provide the stability a family needs but still be the spontaneous person I have always dreamt of being? I want nothing more than to follow the dream I've had for the past years but I can't bring myself to admit that I can die without having kids of my own and being okay with it. I want that- kids, house, the whole shebang. I'm stuck on how to decide. I guess I should focus on the man who would provide me with the children first. That's important. I can postpone this decision at least until I figure that out.